In 2014, my story was featured in the UNLOVED to LOVING Chapter (Chapter 11) of the Bestseller INVINCIBLE. Since then, my life has undergone significant changes and continues to evolve, most notably in my journey to unlearn the UNLOVED” lie and replace it with the loving truth. (For more about my story and my journey to overcome the LIES, you can view this video.)

Years of Growth From CDV

In the months and years that have passed since the release of INVINCIBLE, I have experienced much growth and improvement. This has been evident not only in my professional role as a child advocate and speaker, but also in my personal life as a husband and father. When I don’t think I could love my wife and son more than I do, I wake up the next day to realize that I can and do. My motivation every day is to ensure their lives are better than mine was as a child, and that our family is living a better life, not despite it, but because of it.

My love for my parents is stronger, even with them no longer being with us, now that I better understand their struggles and the blessings and gifts that I have gained not despite of but because of my CDV experience, plus the knowledge I have absorbed thanks to the work of everyone at CDVA. Invincible by Brian F. Martin: The 10 Lies You Learn Growing Up With Domestic Violence and the Truths to Set You Free

Last but not least, I go into Valentine’s Day this year with a stronger love for myself. It is a never-ending blessing to no longer beat myself up and suffer the lack of confidence and esteem because I would constantly blame myself for what happened over 25 years ago. I now understand the value I hold and have a stronger sense of my worth because of what I overcame. Loving oneself is so important for being able to give love to others.

I hope you will also learn more valuable lessons about love, in all its aspects, this Valentine’s Day, and be able to both show and receive that love from those you care for. It is so rewarding.

 

What Feeling “Unloved” Means for People from Violent Homes

If you grew up in a home where yelling, tension, or physical violence were common, you may have learned early to question whether you were truly cared for. Even if no one ever said you were unwanted, the emotional tone of your home may have made you feel invisible, unsafe, or like you were a problem.

For many people, this becomes a deep, private conviction: I was not loved the way I needed to be loved. That message often doesn’t fade with time. It lingers. It manifests in how you perceive yourself, how you interact with others, and how you respond to love now.

This feeling might mean:

  • You expect rejection, even in safe relationships

  • You don’t feel worthy of care unless you’re doing something to earn it

  • You fear being a burden when expressing needs or emotions

  • You carry a constant undercurrent of sadness, even when life seems fine

  • You replay moments from your childhood, wondering what you did wrong

This isn’t just about one bad experience. It’s about growing up in an environment where love was unpredictable, conditional, or overshadowed by fear. Feeling unloved in childhood doesn’t mean you were unlovable. It means your environment failed to provide what you needed, and that belief can be unlearned.

Why the Feeling of Being Unloved Often Sticks into Adulthood

When a child lives in a home where fear, conflict, or neglect is part of daily life, they often internalize the message that they are not wanted, valued, or cared for. Even if no one said it out loud, the silence, tension, or chaos speaks clearly to a child’s developing mind. That early feeling—I don’t matter or something is wrong with me—can become a lens through which they view everything else.

This belief often stays into adulthood because:

  • It formed during years when the brain was still developing and deeply sensitive to emotional input

  • No one named the experience or helped explain that it wasn’t the child’s fault

  • Patterns of relationships continue to reinforce the idea, especially if boundaries, trust, or communication are hard

  • The adult still feels unsafe being emotionally open or vulnerable, even with people who care

  • The body and mind stay on alert, creating tension that feels incompatible with connection or softness

Feeling unloved in adulthood is rarely about the present moment. It’s often about a child’s unmet need that was never addressed. That belief takes root early and becomes an integral part of how someone perceives themselves. However, like all beliefs formed in the context of survival, it can change, not through force or perfection, but through repeated reminders that your worth isn’t something you have to prove. It was never missing. It was just never mirrored back.

Signs You’re Carrying the “Unloved” Belief

Many people who grew up in homes marked by yelling, fear, or emotional distance often don’t realize they’re still carrying a belief that they were unloved. It doesn’t always sound like a clear thought. Sometimes it shows up in behavior, tension, or self-doubt that doesn’t quite make sense.

Here are some common signs:

  • You feel uncomfortable when others show care or kindness

  • You assume people will leave once they “see the real you”

  • You downplay your needs or don’t share them at all

  • You believe love must be earned, not freely given

  • You struggle to trust compliments or accept affection

  • You often feel like an outsider, even among friends or family

  • You blame yourself for other people’s moods or distance

These patterns may seem like personality traits, but they often come from an early environment that didn’t make you feel seen, valued, or emotionally safe. Recognizing the belief is a decisive first step. It gives you the chance to begin separating who you are from what you experienced. You weren’t unloved; you were in a space that didn’t reflect love in a way a child could understand or trust. That can change.

Ways to Cope with Feeling Unloved

The belief that you were unloved doesn’t usually go away on its own. It was built slowly over time, in an environment where care may have been inconsistent, withheld, or overshadowed by fear. To begin letting go of that belief, you don’t need to rewrite your past. You need to adjust your perspective on it now.

Here are some ways to start:

  • Name the belief when it shows up
    Instead of pushing it down or accepting it as truth, acknowledge it: “That’s the old feeling. It’s not who I am.”

  • Look for evidence of care in your life today
    It might be subtle—a friend checking in, a stranger holding the door, your efforts to care for yourself. These moments count.

  • Practice receiving
    Let someone do something kind for you without needing to apologize or shrink. Receiving is an active skill that builds trust in connection.

  • Set boundaries around self-blame
    When something goes wrong, pause before assuming it’s your fault. You are not responsible for other people’s pain or silence.

  • Create small rituals of self-recognition
    Leave a kind note for yourself, reflect on a hard moment you handled well, or celebrate quiet progress. Consistent self-recognition challenges the belief that you don’t matter.

  • Spend time with people who reflect your value back to you
    Safe, consistent connection helps rewire the feeling that you are always on the outside. Choose people who meet you with respect and care.

Letting go of the belief that you were unloved is not about pretending it didn’t hurt. It’s about learning to respond to that feeling in new ways. The past shaped you, but it doesn’t have to define how you see yourself now.

Tools and Practices to Reinforce Self-Worth

If you grew up in a home where love was inconsistent, overshadowed by conflict, or rarely expressed, your sense of worth may have developed around survival, rather than self-acceptance. Rebuilding that foundation takes more than positive thinking. It takes consistent actions that show your nervous system—and your inner voice—that you matter.

Here are simple tools and practices that can help:

  • Journaling prompts focused on value
    Questions like “What did I do today that aligned with who I want to be?” or “What did I handle well this week?” help shift attention toward strength and growth.

  • Self-talk reframing
    When you notice harsh inner thoughts, try replacing them with something neutral and steady. Instead of “I mess everything up,” try “I’m learning, and this is part of the process.”

  • Boundary practice
    Saying no, pausing before reacting, or choosing rest over overworking builds trust with yourself. It proves your needs matter.

  • Movement or creative routines
    Activities like walking, stretching, painting, or listening to music help you feel present and expressive without needing words. This supports emotional processing and self-connection.

  • Daily check-ins
    Take one minute to ask yourself, “What do I need right now?” and give a small piece of it to yourself if possible. Even a moment of quiet, warmth, or water counts.

  • Community that affirms, not drains
    Surround yourself with people or spaces—online or offline—where you don’t feel like you have to earn your place. Feeling accepted as you are reinforces that you’re already enough.

Self-worth grows through consistency, not perfection. Each time you act in alignment with care, respect, and honesty toward yourself, you chip away at the belief that you’re not enough. The more you practice, the more that worth begins to feel real.

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